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td singgah di SIME DARBY. sj lepak blik lynne. tp dia mandi. so singgah bilik fayad which is the next door je. fayad tanya ak kisah lama tu. yeah, she's the one who started all of it. tp ak tak salah kn dia. she is such a nice person. dia pun tak expect things will turn into this. niat dia just utk menolong. membantu ak menutup kisah yg lama dahulu.

it's ok fayad. kira cuma boleh merancang, Allah yg menentukan. sy tak mrh awk.. sungguh. sy pun dh happy ngn life sy skrang. sy happy jumpa 'dia' yang sy yakin blh kembalikan pelangi hidup sy. psal cousin awk tu, biar la dia happy ngn life dia skg. kiorg still berkawan mcm biasa. peace.

sepanjang minggu ni, ak sangat penat. tp sempat utk berlibur. but one PERSON i really need right now! MY MOM!! MISS HER BADLY! klu mama smpai jitra awl esok, ak betul2 mahu pulang. itu syurga ak, itu dunia ak. itu satu2 nya tempat yg mampu merehatkn minda ak yg sangat letih ngn program-program kolej. since buka semester hujung disember lalu, ak still belum ada kesempatan utk pulang. since esk, klas abeh pg, ak rs nk balik. jgn la bro daniel msg ak utk involve prog baru. bg la ak rehat sekejap lepas involve ngn PONGGAL FEST, JALINAN PERPADUAN MAHASISWA, RIANG RIA DE' TRADEWINS.

I REALLY NEED SOME REST! in my own ROOM, with mama n ayah. dulu ak ego, ak pernah cakap just akn balik bila mid sem break. tu pun maybe nk plan holiday ngn mmber2. but now, ak terpaksa admit yang ak still anak mak, cant live without her. banyak hal ak nk cerita kt mama. pasal study, pasal mmber2, n pasal 'dia'.

dasar anak gadis yg ego nya sangat tinggi. ak sukar nk lafazkan sayang pd mama. tp hakikatnya, ak sangat mengaguminya, biar la ada suara2 sumbang yg merasakn mama pelik, tp tidak pada ak. mama unik. mama tegas dalam sayang. mama adalah mama. yang tak pernah kisah dengan pandangan org asalkan perbuatan nya itu tak salah, tak lari sisi agama.

ak bangga punya mama sepertinya. walau bukan dia yang melahirkan ku. tp dia adalah SEGALANYA. takkan ada yang mampu menggantikan nya.
TAKKAN!

to my mama.
thank u so much. dr mimi kecik sampai sekarang. for your eternally love, for your sacrifice. for everything u have done.
sorry for all my mistakes, terlepas cakap, terkasar bahasa, kenakalan yg menyakitkan hati, slalu main2 dlm study, musnahkan harapan n impian.


but one thing,
sejauh mana mimi pergi, pesanan mama sentiasa dalam ingatan
senakal mana mimi, takkan sampai memalukan family
setiap langkah, mimi tahu, doa mama mengiringi.
setiap denyut nadi, dr kasih sayang yg mama beri
walau tak terucap dgn lidah, tp ketahui lah
, I REALLY LOVE YOU.
WITHOUT YOU, I'M NOT WHO I'M TODAY.


Mama thank you for who I am
Thank you for all the things I'm not
Forgive me for the words unsaid
For the timesI forgot


Mama remember all my life
You showed me love,
You sacrificed
Think of those young and early days
How I've changedalong the way

And I know you believed
And I know you had dreams
And I'm sorry it took all this time to see
That I am where I am
because of your truth
I miss you, I miss you

Mama forgive the times you cried
Forgive me for not making right
All of the storms I may have caused
And I've been wrong
Dry your eyes

Mama I hope this makes you smile
I hope you're happy with my life
At peace with every choice I made
How I've changed
Along the way
And I know you believed in all of my dreams
And I owe it all to you, Mama

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2 comments:

Saladin15 said...

single dh r..2 kawan jaa

Unknown said...

hey thats really a nice poem to ur mom..ur mom should be proud of u...
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